Fear of the “What If”

This cute sundress was FREE! Bag, Nine West.
This cute sundress was FREE!
Bag, Nine West.

Hello lovelies,

The past couple of months have been filled with lots of changes, ups and downs, and a recent health scare. I’m a pretty resilient person, however, this latest episode has brought the worst visitor in my life, the What If.

Two days ago, I was trying to pick up some larger pieces of cardboard all at once. My footing slipped, and suddenly a HUGE shot of pain ripped down my right leg. I gasped, and I fell forward. Flashes of what happened to me the last time this happened filled my mind. I ended up having back surgery; I prayed it wouldn’t be the same fate.

Thankful to be standing!
Thankful to be standing!

One visit to the ER and a shot for pain later, I was on the mend again. Thankfully after taking it easy for a day, I felt fine again.

But the question now lingers, “what if?”

I am hoping that this episode was a freak occurrence with my sciatica, but WHAT IF it happens again when…

we go for a hike

swim in the ocean

dance in my kitchen

pick up my cat?

Color dress 4

I don’t like this visitor, Mr. What If.  Living fearlessly pursuing my goals is important to me. To second guess or be scared of trying is something I do not want to begin doing.

Accepting that nerve damage has changed some things for me has been difficult. However, I need to keep Mr. What If quiet so I can focus on the things I CAN and WANT to do.

Like rocking a free dress from Airman’s Attic and going on a date with the Hubby, for instance:) Thought I’d try some dark grey and violet shadow for a new smoky eye, too.

Color dress 2

Breaking away from fear isn’t easy. However, I will not live my life running from it. So, bring it, Mr. What If.

What If….I do everything I dream of? Here’s hoping.

Until next time –

Love, laughter, and shoes –

xoxo Melanie.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What Paradise Means to Me

Romper 1

Hafa Adai! (Chamorro for “How are you?”)

Recently I read an article about a woman who had a 95k job in New York City who tired of the hustle and bustle of the stress, so she decided moving to a small island in the Bahamas and simplifying life would be the answer. She now scoops ice cream and bartends, and couldn’t be happier.

The Hubby and I have been here in Guam for about 6 weeks now, and yes – this place is paradise. So much sun, water, beach, and greenery to see! Although we were assigned here because of Hubby’s job, I think about if Guam would be my paradise if given the choice.

Ah, the palm trees!
Ah, the palm trees!

After living in several places during my life, I’ve come to believe that paradise is a state of mind. Location is important, but it is equally important to be surrounded by support and people who care.

I won’t lie, the first few weeks here were a bit tough. Transitions are stressful, no matter where you go.

Romper 3

Thankfully, I have met a few ladies who have welcomed me and I can begin to breathe in the tropical air and relax.

I’m also loving this new Charlotte Russe Plus romper! It’s super cute and very comfy. Hooray for Charlotte Russe for getting on board and putting cute clothes out for we curvy gals!

Such a cute tie in the back!
Such a cute tie in the back!

Once all of our furniture comes, then our home will truly be in Paradise.

What is paradise to you?

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Until next time!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xoxo Melanie.

“Face-ing” the Inevitable

Hello all,

I want to tell you about a big AH HA moment I experienced this past weekend.

Last week I got my hair cut for the first time since we moved here, and as the stylist shaved away layers of my red tresses, all I saw was white, white, and more white.

Where did my hair color go?

Usually my dark ash brown roots would signal the time for a touch up. However, this time I could hardly see any brown.  Sighing, I picked up some Clairol that promised to “cover stubborn grays.”

burns quote

Two days ago, while moisturizing my face,  I paused to examine a tiny crow’s feet wrinkle that seemingly popped up overnight by my right eye.

I am 44. In some respects, I am proud of that age.  When it comes to my face and body, that number scares me. “Age is just a number” is a mantra I practice, yet, the reality is I AM GETTING OLDER.

At 34.
At 34.
At 44.
At 44.

What will getting older mean for me? Will I fight gravity? Or will I embrace what is happening? I don’t know.

Susan Sarandon perfectly expresses my hopes for aging:

sarandon quote

I think the secret is, enjoying the now and letting go of the worry will show from the inside out.  Here’s to remembering that idea when I cringe at another crow’s feet!

Love, laughter, and shoes –

xoxo

Melanie.

 

Reminder of the Giveaway

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Congrats on 500 follows!!! xoxo Melanie.

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This is my way of thanking my loyal blogging community that is constantly growing. As a way of thanking them for their support, I am hosting this giveaway. You are all amazing people ❤❤❤❤❤❤.

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This contest is open to current and new subscribers/followers!

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The contest starts tonight 4/12-4/26/2015. The winner will be announced on Monday, April 27th via Youtube.

Good Luck!

XOXO,
Damaris

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Go With the Flow

Moving to a new area is exciting, a little scary, and…yes, frustrating. Even in a paradise like Guam, I have had moments where I just wanted some familiarity.  The Hubby and I are in our new home, but it isn’t “home” yet. Our furniture, pictures, favorite games, convenient kitchen gadgets, etc. are still en route to us, and it could possibly take another month for these things to arrive. Trying to find where to get resume’ paper, a hose for the tub (these things are not in the same place!) and spending an afternoon driving around to find these is a bit challenging. Thank God for the beach!

Beautiful and lonely.
Beautiful and lonely.

A couple of days ago, I was really struggling with loneliness. The time difference between here and Michigan is 14 hours, so pretty much the two times of day I can call home is early in the morning, or late at night. Not exactly the most convenient times.

Wish my family could enjoy this with me.
Wish my family could enjoy this with me.

There is the saying, “this too shall pass.” Belongings will arrive, new friends will be made, and I’ll be a whiz at finding bargains.

Until then, I’ll just soak up the sun and go with the flow.

Fringe beach 2

Fringe beach 4

I love fringe, but hate it when a snag happens!
I love fringe, but hate it when a snag happens!
Kimono by Primark, tee by Calvin Klein.
Kimono by Primark, tee by Calvin Klein.

Until next time, lovelies!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xx Melanie.

 

 

 

 

A Shopper’s Dream!

I am in trouble.

BIG trouble.

I’ve discovered that there is a Ross on this island! It’s been a LONG time since I had access to this discount megastore. Don’t worry-I was fairly good and only walked out with two purchases, but they were niiiice deals!

Ross dress

This tunic is everything! I can dress it up or down. Paired with cutoffs and dressy sandals, it’s perfect for a night out.

Love the sparkle detail!
Love the sparkle detail!

Ross dress CU

And speaking of shoes…I got these Guess sandals for $20!! Oh yeah!!

Guess sandals

The Hubby and I now are moved in to our new place, so soon I’ll be able to do some makeup and skincare videos!

Hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend! Don’t eat too many jellybeans:)

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xoxo

Melanie.

Pale Girl in Paradise

Hello lovelies!

I’m a proud mix of Irish and Swedish decent, and though I am proud, it does make me, well, stand out in a tropical area.

Hafa Adai!
Hafa Adai!

After four years in mostly cloudy Germany, the Hubby and I didn’t get much sunlight. Now that we are in Guam, the sun’s rays blind everyone who sees us, lol! However, I just slather on the SPF 50 and let the freckles come.

At sunrise.
At sunrise.

A few nights ago, the Hubby took me on a date and I got to wear this fierce Torrid dress. What is so especially cool about it are the small dark blue spots with the leopard print. Looks great with my Charlotte Russe top!

Torrid 1

Paired with Forever 21 sandals and a Nine West bag.
Paired with Forever 21 sandals and a Nine West bag.
Feel like Marilyn!
Feel like Marilyn!

Just like my curves, I’ll work my pale self to the max. I’ll probably end up a light coffee color eventually, but I’m ok with who I am now. So, if any of you out there are pale like me, take solace in knowing that you’ll have great skin for many years. Take it from me, a 40 something with no wrinkles:)

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xoxo

Melanie.

 

Living life as a curvy goddess, without apologies.

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