Fear of the “What If”

This cute sundress was FREE! Bag, Nine West.

This cute sundress was FREE!
Bag, Nine West.

Hello lovelies,

The past couple of months have been filled with lots of changes, ups and downs, and a recent health scare. I’m a pretty resilient person, however, this latest episode has brought the worst visitor in my life, the What If.

Two days ago, I was trying to pick up some larger pieces of cardboard all at once. My footing slipped, and suddenly a HUGE shot of pain ripped down my right leg. I gasped, and I fell forward. Flashes of what happened to me the last time this happened filled my mind. I ended up having back surgery; I prayed it wouldn’t be the same fate.

Thankful to be standing!

Thankful to be standing!

One visit to the ER and a shot for pain later, I was on the mend again. Thankfully after taking it easy for a day, I felt fine again.

But the question now lingers, “what if?”

I am hoping that this episode was a freak occurrence with my sciatica, but WHAT IF it happens again when…

we go for a hike

swim in the ocean

dance in my kitchen

pick up my cat?

Color dress 4

I don’t like this visitor, Mr. What If.  Living fearlessly pursuing my goals is important to me. To second guess or be scared of trying is something I do not want to begin doing.

Accepting that nerve damage has changed some things for me has been difficult. However, I need to keep Mr. What If quiet so I can focus on the things I CAN and WANT to do.

Like rocking a free dress from Airman’s Attic and going on a date with the Hubby, for instance:) Thought I’d try some dark grey and violet shadow for a new smoky eye, too.

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Breaking away from fear isn’t easy. However, I will not live my life running from it. So, bring it, Mr. What If.

What If….I do everything I dream of? Here’s hoping.

Until next time –

Love, laughter, and shoes –

xoxo Melanie.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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