Biopsy 2: Electric Boogaloo

Forgive me for the title.  I’m an 80s kid and couldn’t resist.  😃

Cancer isn’t funny.  It sucks.  However, thinking you might have cancer, or are fighting cancer, sometimes having a dark sense of humor comes in handy. That’s how I’ve tried to handle things since starting down this road to finding out what the hell is in my boob.

Last Friday morning,  I took a step closer to solving this mystery of “That Odd Tentacle Thing in My Left Breast.”

First off, I’m wheeled down to Radiology to get another mammogram, so my doc can insert a wire in my breast to surround the questionable area.  This will help the surgeon to take out enough tissue to be tested.

Ah… the lovely Boob Smashing Machine.

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Dr. G and her assistant prepped me by inserting a numbing shot. “A prick and then a little burning,” Dr. G said.

little burning? I could feel my eyes water as I inhaled deeply as what felt like FIRE enter my breast! Thankfully, the burning passed quickly.  A young 20 something tech smiled at me emphatically as I winced.

“Now we’re going to insert the wire. Look straight ahead,” Dr. G gently warned me. No problem – I have zero desire to look at myself turning into Frankenboob.

After a few minutes, the procedure was done. The extra wire poking out of me was taped to my upper chest (I’m still numbed up), gauze packed on my underside area, and I was whisked away to surgery.

On my way to surgery, we passed my hubby in the waiting room.

He kissed me. “I love you.  It’s going to be all right,” he half whispered. “I’ll be here when you wake up. ”

After the nurses began inserting an IV,  getting additional info from me, and taking vitals, the anesthesiologist gave me a pill to prevent nausea. “I’ll get your medicine to make you sleepy; I’ll be right back,” she gently touched my shoulder.

For the first time since checking in, I was alone.  Suddenly, the room felt too big, this whole thing felt like too much. I wanted to leave. My hands began sweating.

WHAT IF YOU HAVE CANCER?

No,  I thought.  You’re not going to do that.  You’re not going to let IT win.  If I do have IT, then I’m fighting.  All The Way. You’re not going to let the Fear or Cancer take over your life, I swore to myself.

After the drugs were administered, I didn’t give a damn what happened. I was floating in bliss. Then, the oxygen mask was placed on my face.  “Take a few deep breaths for me. There you go.  Take another.”

“Melanie!” I heard a woman’s voice, followed by patting of my cheeks. “Melanie, wake up. ”

I open my eyes.  “You did great,” the nurse smiled.  “It’s all done. ”  That felt like 5 minutes!

It’s been a few days since the surgery.  My poor boob looks like Mike Tyson used it as a punching bag, and it aches.  No weighs over 15 lbs, no bathing or hot tubs, and no raising my left arm over my head for a couple of weeks. By the way – I didn’t realize how much I used my left arm until I couldn’t raise it!

The doc said I should know the results in about a week’s time, but unlike the first Biopsy, I’m ready for whatever result will happen. In that surgery prep area, I killed off the What If. I am not afraid.

If Cancer is what I’m facing, then Cancer better strap in for a helluva fight! I’ll be ready to whip some ass.

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Love, laughter, and shoes-

Xo, Melanie.

 

 

 

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Oh No, My Friend Has a Home Business…!

Hello Lovelies,

I know this has happened to you. You’re on Facebook, and you’ve received an invite. It’s from your friend Jane and guess what – she’s started X business as a consultant, and wouldn’t you like to 1) come to her launch party 2) refer her to some friends and/or 3) host a party?

One of two things will happen:

  1. You sigh and decide to go to the launch to support her (but you’re not spending more than X, dammit!)
  2. You sigh and pretend you didn’t see the invite and make up an excuse later.

I know you’ve done one of the two because I’ve done the same thing!

However – here’s the truth: Your friend is excited about her new business but is scared sh**less at the same time because she’s worried about:

  1. The cost she’s put into the start up.
  2. Her partner’s rolling eyes and the “I told you so’s.”
  3. She will piss off or annoy her friends and family with party invites and product posts.

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Kinda seems like it? hahaha!

Kinda seems like it? hahaha!

Here’s where things changed for me. When I decided to go to a party that had a a direct sales product, I actually had fun. For real!

Plus, the consultant was a military spouse like me, and she was just trying to make a little side money – no grand delusions of getting rich. She wasn’t pushy, either. Bonus: I liked the products!

And then, I thought – why am I giving my money to big box stores when my business could be directly helping a family? 

I decided I would try to support home businesses as much as I could. If I needed a special gift, better makeup, skincare, comfortable clothing, or great smelling wax bars, I would seek out those consultants.

And, though I never sold any products before, I became a Pure Romance consultant last August! Nearly six months later, I’ve sold nearly $17k in retail and was able to buy Christmas presents without digging into our joint checking account! Most importantly –

  1. I believe in the products. I’d never recommend anything I didn’t believe in to a friend, or use myself.
  2. The parties have introduced me to new friends. As a military spouse, it’s easy to feel isolated and I’m so grateful for new women in my life!
  3. I don’t feel like I have to “bug” people.
With my team members!

With my team members!

Ready to do my party thang.

Ready to do my party thang.

So, the next time Jane invites you to her Scentsy, LuLaRoe, Limelight, Younique, Origami Owl, Thirty One Gifts (or Pure Romance!), party –  DO THIS:

RSVP and go.

OR

Not interested? Let her know. Just say, “Thanks for inviting me! This isn’t really something I’m interested in, but I’ll pass your name on.”

She (and other Janes) will appreciate it! Believe me, a “no” won’t crush her (if it does, then maybe she shouldn’t go into business?!!).

Hope this helps you out!

Until next time –

Love, laughter, and shoes –

xo, Melanie

Your friendly Pure Romance Consultant:)

http://www.pureromance.com/melanierobinson187802

 

 

What Paradise Means to Me

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Hafa Adai! (Chamorro for “How are you?”)

Recently I read an article about a woman who had a 95k job in New York City who tired of the hustle and bustle of the stress, so she decided moving to a small island in the Bahamas and simplifying life would be the answer. She now scoops ice cream and bartends, and couldn’t be happier.

The Hubby and I have been here in Guam for about 6 weeks now, and yes – this place is paradise. So much sun, water, beach, and greenery to see! Although we were assigned here because of Hubby’s job, I think about if Guam would be my paradise if given the choice.

Ah, the palm trees!

Ah, the palm trees!

After living in several places during my life, I’ve come to believe that paradise is a state of mind. Location is important, but it is equally important to be surrounded by support and people who care.

I won’t lie, the first few weeks here were a bit tough. Transitions are stressful, no matter where you go.

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Thankfully, I have met a few ladies who have welcomed me and I can begin to breathe in the tropical air and relax.

I’m also loving this new Charlotte Russe Plus romper! It’s super cute and very comfy. Hooray for Charlotte Russe for getting on board and putting cute clothes out for we curvy gals!

Such a cute tie in the back!

Such a cute tie in the back!

Once all of our furniture comes, then our home will truly be in Paradise.

What is paradise to you?

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Until next time!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xoxo Melanie.

Go With the Flow

Moving to a new area is exciting, a little scary, and…yes, frustrating. Even in a paradise like Guam, I have had moments where I just wanted some familiarity.  The Hubby and I are in our new home, but it isn’t “home” yet. Our furniture, pictures, favorite games, convenient kitchen gadgets, etc. are still en route to us, and it could possibly take another month for these things to arrive. Trying to find where to get resume’ paper, a hose for the tub (these things are not in the same place!) and spending an afternoon driving around to find these is a bit challenging. Thank God for the beach!

Beautiful and lonely.

Beautiful and lonely.

A couple of days ago, I was really struggling with loneliness. The time difference between here and Michigan is 14 hours, so pretty much the two times of day I can call home is early in the morning, or late at night. Not exactly the most convenient times.

Wish my family could enjoy this with me.

Wish my family could enjoy this with me.

There is the saying, “this too shall pass.” Belongings will arrive, new friends will be made, and I’ll be a whiz at finding bargains.

Until then, I’ll just soak up the sun and go with the flow.

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I love fringe, but hate it when a snag happens!

I love fringe, but hate it when a snag happens!

Kimono by Primark, tee by Calvin Klein.

Kimono by Primark, tee by Calvin Klein.

Until next time, lovelies!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xx Melanie.

 

 

 

 

And Now For Somewhere Completely Different…GUAM!

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HAFA ADAI, all!

Yes, I am LITERALLY on the other side of the world since I last posted! The hubby and I got into Guam two days ago, and whoa, the jet lag is kicking my behind, but I’m very excited for the new adventure:)

Leaving our friends and family in Michigan was very emotional for us.  We had so much fun hanging out and enjoying each others’ company, and when it was time to go, my heart sunk. We don’t get to see our family except for once every couple of years, and that is the toughest part of being in a military family.

However, I find some comfort in being in the sun and being able to rock my newest looks from Charlotte Russe and H&M! Curvy gals, did you know Charlotte Russe just debuted their plus line? Check out this adorable romper!

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And…CR is doing a 30% off sale right now! Ohhhh yeahhhh!

I also got adventurous and decided to mix prints. Here’s a cute lipstick kiss tee from H&M paired with this skater skirt from Charlotte Russe! Forgive the mirror selfies; hubby is busy getting our stuff processed!

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Lipstick print shirt

Lipstick print CU

 

Kiss, kiss!

Kiss, kiss!

Lots of pics to come soon of this lovely island – but here is a view from our hotel balcony!

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Until next time – love, laughter, and shoes!

xoxo

Melanie.

Shopping and Stuffing My Face!

Hello all!

I know, I know…I’ve been slacking on posts lately! However, the Hubby and I have been having a whirlwind visit with friends and family in Michigan. As they say, time FLIES when you’re having fun.  We’ve been stuffing ourselves silly with dinners out, so I am NOT getting on a scale for at least a month, ha!

Of course, no vacay is complete without shopping! I picked up some GREAT bargains for Guam. My everyday purse was dying a slow death, so when I saw this gorgeous Nine West fringe bag at Younkers for ONLY $20, I snatched it! I love between season sales!

Can you believe I got this for $20?!!! It was originally $90!

Can you believe I got this for $20?!!! It was originally $90!

Being a Michigan girl through and through, I HAD to get this University of Michigan “Lucky” tee to wear with my Primark sporty skirt! Check out my maize & blue socks!

GO BLUE!

GO BLUE!

I’m also wearing a new Clinique foundation. This is “Perfectly Real” makeup I got from Sephora. The coverage is light, but still covers those little ruddy areas.

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With winter gradually melting away, I was able to wear my SWAK Designs denim jacket out to dinner. This is the PERFECT between season jacket. It’s a cozy soft denim.

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And I thought this cat bracelet looked purrrrfect with it!

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Sadly, all good things must come to an end. Our visit ends Monday, and off to our new adventure in Guam we go! Stay tuned to see my new spring looks!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xo Melanie.

I love a fireplace on a cool night!

I love a fireplace on a cool night!

Looking Hot in the Big Chill

Michigan, aka Antartica.

Michigan, aka Anarctica.

Hello lovelies,

So, the Hubby and I are “back home” in Michigan, during one of the coldest freaking winters ever! Today it was actually a semi-tolerable 20 degrees, so the two of us (plus my dad) ventured out to the pier in Grand Haven. Lake Michigan is almost frozen solid! You’d think we were in the Artic!

Brrrrr! But beautiful.

Brrrrr! But beautiful.

Of course,  I had to attempt to be fashionable, so I wore TWO pairs of leggings (these are my new favorites from H&M), a cute knitted head wrap to keep the ears warm, a black peacoat from Paris, and my trusty Just Fab boots. Let the frostbite just try and get me!

Hurry and take the pic!

Hurry and take the pic!

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Check out this ice sculpture Mother Nature made!

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While my teeth chattered, I chanted under my breath, “soon I will be in Guam…soon I will be in Guam…”

How are you keeping warm and fashionable? Let me know!

Until next time-

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xo Melanie.