Please Stop Hating Yourself!

Hello Lovelies,

Tonight I chatted with some friends in my Facebook Messenger, and the topic of our bodies came up. Some of the conversation went like this:

“I think I look gross. I did a boudoir for last year. And Had to wear something that covered my stomach and still hated how I looked in all of them. The photographer was amazing but ya…”

“I don’t have the balls to do a shoot-

I barely have sex with the lights on.”
“I’m just not comfortable with my body.”
These are mostly 20 and 30 something women who are absolutely gorgeous. Being good friends, we were telling one another how crazy we were to talk this way about ourselves (which was true! These ladies are HOT!).
But I remember that loathing. The feeling of not being good enough; judging myself in dressing room mirrors, cringing at the slightest extra few pounds on my stomach. Endless dieting. As a performer, I felt that extra pressure to achieve that coveted size 2-4 (and I did – but developed an eating disorder in the process).
I’m no longer living off the coffee and protein bars to stay small (thank God), and I’ve stopped the size obsession. It’s exhausting. Could I stand to lose some weight? Of course. I’m working on dropping some pounds, but I really just want to be healthy.
How did I stop the loathing? This quote from RuPaul did it:
“If you can’t love yourself, how the hell you gonna love someone else?”
(can I get an “Amen” in here?)
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It’s true. Mama Ru knows a little something about acceptance! I finally had to learn to accept who I was, right then – not the “someday” version of Melanie I fantasized about. I deserve to be happy.
As women, we are fantastically hard on ourselves. We’re not tall enough, thin enough, curvy enough, busty enough, young enough, bootylicious enough. If it’s not our bodies we’re hating, it’s feeling like we don’t measure up as mothers, wives, or deserving of success.
PLEASE STOP.
Generally, men don’t do this to themselves. They work on their “trouble” areas, but the self loathing is not nearly as much as what women do to their self-esteem.
So, what do we do about it? Focus on things which we love about ourselves. Start by playing up those legs if you love those. Enhance your beautiful skin. Show off your shoulders. Let your hair hang down.  Give back to others. Surround yourself with those with good energy. Realize that all those models are airbrushed and photoshopped!
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If there’s one advantage to being a forty something, it’s that knowing that I am comfortable and fine the way I am. It took me a long time to get here, and I want to face the second half of my life feeling good.
Let’s give ourselves a break and enjoy life!!
Until next time –
Love, laughter, and shoes –
xo Melanie
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No “Biggest Loser” For Me

Hello lovelies,

Are you a fan of the show “The Biggest Loser?” I was. The Hubby and I watched a few seasons together and would be motivated and inspired by the contestants’ progress. I would always marvel at the Finale episode when contestants would burst through an old picture of their heavier selves. Many of them would lose well over 100 pounds, sometimes more. The winner would stand in a shower of confetti, and be rewarded with $250,000 and lined up to do speaking engagements, book deals, and endorsements.

Danny Cahill is one of those winners. He started the show at 430 lbs, won at 191 lbs., and is now 295 lbs., six years after the win. According to a study conducted on the Season 8 contestants (Cahill was one of them), all but one have gained back significant weight.

Danny Cahill, Season 8 Winner

Danny Cahill, Season 8 Winner

May 2016.

May 2016.

According to the study, the main reason for these contestants regaining weight is because their metabolisms now burn several hundred calories less than when they started the Biggest Loser. Basically, their metabolisms were shot after losing so much weight in the span of six months.

Even before this study came out, I stopped watching the show after Rachel Frederickson won the show, losing over 60 percent of her original body weight. Even trainers Bob and Jillian looked shocked and horrified at her appearance. Thin at all costs? No thank you.

Only 105 lbs. in this pic. Rachel has gained 20 lbs. since the finale and feels "perfect."

Only 105 lbs. in this pic. Rachel has gained 20 lbs. since the finale and feels “perfect.”

Bob and Jillian know something is wrong here.

Bob and Jillian know something is wrong here.

I’m on a journey, not a sprint. It’s perfectly fine for me to lose weight slowly. When I take off the weight, it’s going to be for good, not for a quick fix.

On March 3, 2016 I started my work at 223 lbs., the heaviest I’ve been. Today (May 11, 2016), I am 12.5 lbs. lighter at 210.5 and feeling much better. No, I wouldn’t win a weight loss contest, but I don’t care. I’d rather be healthy for the rest of my life.

I couldn't wear this dress two months ago! Fits great now.

I couldn’t wear this dress two months ago! Fits great now.

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Slow and steady works for me!

How do you feel about the results of the Biggest Loser study? Let me know!

Until next time – love, laughter, and shoes-

xo Melanie.