Fear of the “What If”

This cute sundress was FREE! Bag, Nine West.

This cute sundress was FREE!
Bag, Nine West.

Hello lovelies,

The past couple of months have been filled with lots of changes, ups and downs, and a recent health scare. I’m a pretty resilient person, however, this latest episode has brought the worst visitor in my life, the What If.

Two days ago, I was trying to pick up some larger pieces of cardboard all at once. My footing slipped, and suddenly a HUGE shot of pain ripped down my right leg. I gasped, and I fell forward. Flashes of what happened to me the last time this happened filled my mind. I ended up having back surgery; I prayed it wouldn’t be the same fate.

Thankful to be standing!

Thankful to be standing!

One visit to the ER and a shot for pain later, I was on the mend again. Thankfully after taking it easy for a day, I felt fine again.

But the question now lingers, “what if?”

I am hoping that this episode was a freak occurrence with my sciatica, but WHAT IF it happens again when…

we go for a hike

swim in the ocean

dance in my kitchen

pick up my cat?

Color dress 4

I don’t like this visitor, Mr. What If.  Living fearlessly pursuing my goals is important to me. To second guess or be scared of trying is something I do not want to begin doing.

Accepting that nerve damage has changed some things for me has been difficult. However, I need to keep Mr. What If quiet so I can focus on the things I CAN and WANT to do.

Like rocking a free dress from Airman’s Attic and going on a date with the Hubby, for instance:) Thought I’d try some dark grey and violet shadow for a new smoky eye, too.

Color dress 2

Breaking away from fear isn’t easy. However, I will not live my life running from it. So, bring it, Mr. What If.

What If….I do everything I dream of? Here’s hoping.

Until next time –

Love, laughter, and shoes –

xoxo Melanie.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pale Girl in Paradise

Hello lovelies!

I’m a proud mix of Irish and Swedish decent, and though I am proud, it does make me, well, stand out in a tropical area.

Hafa Adai!

Hafa Adai!

After four years in mostly cloudy Germany, the Hubby and I didn’t get much sunlight. Now that we are in Guam, the sun’s rays blind everyone who sees us, lol! However, I just slather on the SPF 50 and let the freckles come.

At sunrise.

At sunrise.

A few nights ago, the Hubby took me on a date and I got to wear this fierce Torrid dress. What is so especially cool about it are the small dark blue spots with the leopard print. Looks great with my Charlotte Russe top!

Torrid 1

Paired with Forever 21 sandals and a Nine West bag.

Paired with Forever 21 sandals and a Nine West bag.

Feel like Marilyn!

Feel like Marilyn!

Just like my curves, I’ll work my pale self to the max. I’ll probably end up a light coffee color eventually, but I’m ok with who I am now. So, if any of you out there are pale like me, take solace in knowing that you’ll have great skin for many years. Take it from me, a 40 something with no wrinkles:)

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xoxo

Melanie.

 

Shopping and Stuffing My Face!

Hello all!

I know, I know…I’ve been slacking on posts lately! However, the Hubby and I have been having a whirlwind visit with friends and family in Michigan. As they say, time FLIES when you’re having fun.  We’ve been stuffing ourselves silly with dinners out, so I am NOT getting on a scale for at least a month, ha!

Of course, no vacay is complete without shopping! I picked up some GREAT bargains for Guam. My everyday purse was dying a slow death, so when I saw this gorgeous Nine West fringe bag at Younkers for ONLY $20, I snatched it! I love between season sales!

Can you believe I got this for $20?!!! It was originally $90!

Can you believe I got this for $20?!!! It was originally $90!

Being a Michigan girl through and through, I HAD to get this University of Michigan “Lucky” tee to wear with my Primark sporty skirt! Check out my maize & blue socks!

GO BLUE!

GO BLUE!

I’m also wearing a new Clinique foundation. This is “Perfectly Real” makeup I got from Sephora. The coverage is light, but still covers those little ruddy areas.

Lucky CU

With winter gradually melting away, I was able to wear my SWAK Designs denim jacket out to dinner. This is the PERFECT between season jacket. It’s a cozy soft denim.

SWAK jacket

And I thought this cat bracelet looked purrrrfect with it!

Cat bracelet

Sadly, all good things must come to an end. Our visit ends Monday, and off to our new adventure in Guam we go! Stay tuned to see my new spring looks!

Love, laughter, and shoes-

xo Melanie.

I love a fireplace on a cool night!

I love a fireplace on a cool night!